happy birthday grace!!!haha my beloved cg leader...lao le yi sui le...haha...jkjk...u will forever stay young de...haha....i just wanna say thx for everything that u have done for me....everything that u did for me from the first time i came to E222....haha...io know u very teng wo lah....haha...ya really thx for everything....thx for being there to cheer me up when i down...and thx for all the hugs....at the and of june...our cg will be multiplying....haha...and i know that u have already made your decisions...haha....dun worry....even if i may not be put on the same cg with those ppl that i wan...its really alright...i will nv be a back slider....and i will be forever on fire for GOD and i promised u that i wil grow stronger spiritually....haha....E222 know about wad happened recently...but there are still lots of guys out there....hope a better guy will come into ur liife...haha...no matter wad happens....u will forever be the best cg leader in my heart!!!!haha and i believe that all the E222 members think so too.....once again happy birthday!!!love ya lots!!!!!
<3 u forever,
x-crystal-x
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after all these times i still miss u alot...i realise its not easy to forget someone who is so so important in my life....and thats u...maybe bcos i was kind of her close fren thats y we were kind of close too....my dreams are all shattered now...i cant explain how sad i feel now...its beyond wad words can explain....will u stop these tears...u r the only one who can mend my heart...but i know thats nv gonna happen though...they saw everything...even the words from that bottom of my heart that was written for u...i seriously dun understand y they must do that...but wads done cannot be undone...it was meant only for u.....those words...i can forever remember...while i wrote them....tears flowed down at the same time....but they saw everything le...got nth to say though....wad i say also cant change the situation....haiz....i got no mood to do anything now...really dun understand y bad things are happening to me... =(
x-crystal-x
u will forever be in my heart....wish u all the best
i think i should put the end to everything....maybe in ur heart it was long over...or maybe there wasnt even a start....i have really grown alot these few months...i learnt lots of things....like.....not everything will have a fairytale ending...happy ever after......
from the bottom of my heart...i wish u all the best....this might be the last time im sayin sth to u from the bottom of my heart...cos i might nv have the chance agn...
-iluvu-
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
haha that day talked to mr tan...i think he reali very nice la compared to pat wong...its like tian cha di....nvm...haha...then he was in his class then nobody in his class so me and chriis-tina went in then he wanted to write some yi shou jiao qian yi shou jiao huo thing...then his chinese...haha....so we help him lor...ya so his class ppl must thank us ah....haha then asl him to minus his marks cos he always bully me.. :( mummy!!!!!someone bully me!!!!haha jkjkj mr tan will not do that de...haha find that i very lazy to post nowadays haiz cos like very sian....got so many things to write....dun think can write everything in my blog cos u know....i got no one to talk to...u know everyone has secrets???ya so....haiz....then i very busy so even after exams i dun reali use the com cos i busy going out....hahabut i also feel like i have been going out less often already lor....have been very guai lately stay at home more....just dun have the mood to go out lah...just carn wait for 31st may...i bet jie also haha really wanna relax myself...i very stressed up lately le....ya so like....wanna unstress??haha....maybe i stay at home thinking of the past???thinking of how great it was when i was a child???haha nvm....
-lOsT wIfFoUt u-
20/05/06--the day when u are still in my heart
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
very long never post le...missed my bloggie....got back exam papers....shall say its ok???now lookin for a holiday job...dunno if i can ever find one....never mind try my luck...god will bless me...alot of things happen....dun wish to say wad.....i still carn forget u....haiz....no mood to type le....but i just wanna say that i realy hate someone....its a sin to hate someone....love ur neighbours as urself...but aiya...i reali carn stand him le lah...k let me tell u this once and for all.....its over everything is over....stop smsing me....cos it only makes me hate u more...haiz....there are somethings i wish to say about your ----- but i know its bad if i type it all out here....aiya....its already over....im sick and tired...haiya...if u dun listen to my advice and let those past times go...its ur prob...dun come and tell me all those er xin stuff...i carn taske it anymore....everytime i wish it was someone else who msg me...i flip open my phone...my heart sinks to the bottom of the sea....i carn take it anymore....everytime i see ur msg...i dun wanna reply but do i have a choice?u will say i dao...just stop it ah....its no use.....everytime i see ur msg...i feel like just throwing my phone away man!!!im gonna delete this blog and create a new one whom no one will know.....so that i can voice out my views openly
-losT wifFouT u-
u will forever be in my heart...although u left a scar...but u painted a beautiful picture too
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
went to see her blog...haiz....is it really wrong to treat ppl well???esp guys???then they will think that u treat everyone else the same and they will say things that hurt u....is this really wad we deserve for treatin ppl well???and get mistaken???then wads the use???and y must some ppl be such a hypocrite lah and some ppl just like to be a copycat lah....wads the use???is it reali so fun to be a person with so many faces???i reali dun understand lah....its like wads the use??y must some ppl say things that hurt others' hearts????y must some ppl just doubt the heart of others???y must some ppl play with others' fragile heartS?is it realy so fun to treat us girls like toys?just play around with us and later when u grow out of it and grow sick and tired then just dump it at a side???y must some ppl just give others false hopes???treat one so nicely and then after tt just treat the person like a stranger????if one never grow sick and tired then its more than just love....but why do some ppl just have to be....haix...nvm....i just dun understand....kids are just so innocent....they treat u well and it comes from their hearts....but as they grow up....they learn to be a person with so many faces...hypocrite....and everything...y carn we just be as innocent as kids????we were once kids too....but it seems like there arent any traces at al....cos they have totally change....
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i hope u see this....cheer up k???one day he will understand that u reali care for him as a fren de....
i realli dunno how it feels when a guy gets dumped by a girl...i know the feeling must be terrible....but hey life still goes on rite????they really care for u....did u realise that they are always there for u????u have a bad temper, u are so petty, u have serious moodswings....but they didnt leave u...although a lot of ppl dun like u but they are still there for u....wad did u do in return????just wanna tell u that no matter wad happens life still goes on...so wad if u were once dumped by a girl???does it mean that u will no longer have a successfull relationship in future???no rite????have u ever thought y the girl choose to leave u????maybe both of u are wrong....but if u all wanna be together u have to learn to tolerate each others mistakes rite????but even if she can tolerate there is a limit rite???have u ever thought that maybe it was mainly your fault????just that u dunno.....
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hope u sees this but i dun think u got come my blog so nvm....
i miss those times....in her...i see the exact reflection of myself......why is life so terrible for the both of us????we just try to treat everyone well....we just wish we will not grow up....but it will never happen.....why can the two most important ppl in our lives just bcome memories instead of the truth.....memories means they will never come back to us again...i really dun understand.....but i just hope that all my frens will be happy....i dun wan to see my reflection in her...i wan her to be happy....i really wan her to cheer up....i pray to god everynight just hoping that everyone will be happy.esp her...i have never seen her smile happily after he left her life...u know im talkin about u....if i really see a shooting star one day....i will wish for something that totally doesnt concern him...i will just wish that u will be happy and he will once again be part of ur life and not part of ur memory.......i reali care for u.....i really wan u to cheer up....
he has bcome a memory in me....i know he will never be part of the truth again...so if i see s shootin star one day...i will not wish for anything about him....but i will wish that u will be happy...remember the three sisters of kopi-c.....we will stay together united as sisters....and i will always be here to pray for u and to cheer u up....u can always tok to me if u need a listening ear.....although i have my troubles but i will be more than willing to share ur burden.....
the 'youngest' among the "tHrE3 sIstERs Of KoPi-C"
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
missed my bloggie man!!!haha today had elit drama...i think our cluster reali put in lots of effort esp gerald lah...haha....didnt expect him to act so well de haha but well done man!!!cluster 2 woosh!!!!haha me and hui kian were supposed to act o biang in the end we bcame bitchy lah haha but very fun lah....we realy enjoyed all the practices in class and everything lah....they will be kept in a safe box named memories.....as for u ...u r not kept in the safe box...but in my heart always...haha....nvm....talk about e lit first....then i think all the slides all very nice and rite er actually supposed to have music but then in the end dun have ya so...but nvm....we did our best....cluster 2 rox my socks lah!!!!woots!!!i love cluster 2!!!!our efforts have paid off!!!haha short post cos i dun wanna talk about u anymore...anyways did some kind of test today....those horoscope thingy lah....some ppl think its fake...but i think some parts true then some parts fake lah....haha...but i just wanna tell u that the times we had....the laughters we laughed..will forever be kept safe in my heart...
y does it have to end with a tear???
___crystal___
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
WADEVER LAH I M DAMN FREAKING PISSED OFF....WADS THE PROB LAH....U BLOCK THEN BLOCK LOR STILL SAY ITS BCOS U FIND THAT TALKIN TO ME WILL ONLY DUNNO WAD LAH...ALL BULLSHIT LAH....TEARS ARE FLOWING AGAIN....THEY JUST FLOW FREELY DOWN MY CHEEKS....I REALLI WANNA KILL MYSELF LAH...BUT I WILL NV GET TO SEE HIM AGAIN...NVM....SHE SCOLDED ME....I DUN CARE...I DUN WAN ANYONE TO CARE ABOUT ME...ITS NOT WORTH IT...JUST HECK CARE ME LAH...I HATE MYSELF MAN!!!!!!SCOLD LAH U CAN SCOLD ME FOR ALL U WAN I DUN CARE A BIT....JUST SCOLD WADEVER U WAN TO SCOLD....I DUN CARE....WTF....ALTHOUGH THE PAST HURTS BUT THEY ALSO BROUGHT GOOD MEMORIES...U ARE NOT ME...U WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND...I HAVE GIVEN UP ON MYSELF...SO Y DO U ALL STILL WANNA CARE ABOUT ME????I JUST WAN U ALL TO BE HAPPY...COS I KOW THERE IS NO WAY I CAN BE HAPPY AGAIN.....AND U ARE JUST CHEATING URSELF BY SAYING NTH CHANGED...I DUN BELEIVE...ANYWAYS IF U WANNA BLUFF PEOPLE...THEN THERES NTH I CAN DO....U R JUST CHEATING OTHER PPL AND CHEATING UR OWN FEELINGS BY BEING TOGETHER WITH SOMEONE U DUN LIKE....HECK CARE ABOUT ME...JUST STOP EVERYTHING
TEARS FLOWED DOWN MY CHEEKS AT 4.58PM
ITS A SAD EASTER....MY DEATH ANNIVESARY
THIS POST WAS WRITTEN IN HELL.........
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went for service yesterday it was very very special...the drama was so touching...i cried....tears just flowed down....i dunno y....but how i wish the tears could flow freely forever...until i bcome blind....but somehow...i manage to stop the tears bcos i was afraid that if i bcome blind...i can never see u again...but i know even if i reali bcome blind one day.....ur face and ur smile....will stay deep within my heart....then me and the two chars dressed almost the same lah except that we had different bags and shoes i think....ya then very funny....ok back to the service....i think alot of people thought that the beginning was funny.....alot of ppl were laughing....but somehow...i dunno why...i just couldnt laugh...i was thinking of something else.....i looked at her through the corner of my eye....she wasnt laughing too....things were just on our minds....some hurtful things....i really care for u...but she sees no need for us to care about her...i just wanna let her know that i really care for her even if she doesnt want my care...she can reject the care that i give her butit will never stop me from caring for her....just wanna let her know that"u are the greatest fren i can ever have...i dunno about u...maybe to u im just another person whom god has put in ur life...just like anybody else....maybe in ur heart im just someone passing by ur life...but i wanna let u know....u play an important role in my life and u r the bestest fren i can ever find in my whole entire life....even if u dun think the same way as i think i dun care i just wanna let u know that i reali care for u and that u r the greatest fren in my life....and be true to urself....it really hurts me seein u like this...everytime u r depressed i dun feel happy...i reali wan u to be happy...u always try to act like u r happy...but i know u arent happy at all....i really dun wish to see u like that..."i really care for her...i truly wan her to be happy...i dun wan her to be like me...always wearing on a smile but hurting on the inside....i rather im the only one who is unhappy and hurting inside...but i never wan the people around me to be unhappy...tears are flowing again....i hope that the days of the past will come back....when the both of us girlsare so happy and free....when there was someone there to cheer u up...and someone who said will stay by me....i miss those days...when you will see two girls like mad women laughing their heads off and were truly happy inside them.....i really miss those times...will we ever be like b4 again???i doubt so...everything has changed completely...but i truly hope those days will come again....when everybody saw the happy us and not the two girls now wearing on a smile...acting happy...but hurting deeply inside their hearts....i wan those memories back....yesterday i saw his nick....my heart reali sank....but i know that i have to learn to let go...but y carn i just do that???i really hate myself....i hate this world too....y???y does bad things always happen to these two girls who just plainy wish to be happy and free like b4???y???i really dun understand...i just know that im now alone in this world without u....and i only know that the two girls can never be like b4 again.....
iamdead on easter at 3.25pm
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-::Crystal.Penguin::-